They sure do have a way at pulling at your heart strings!
Recently I have watched the film Paper Towns, It had been the first time in quite a while. The first time watching it, was the summer of 2015. At that time my perspective was guided like a horse blinder and did not understand the message the producers were trying to convey. The first time seeing the film I had though it was enjoyable for the first 45 minutes then after it is an hour of the male main character Quentin looking for the female lead Margo. What I didn’t understand then but have learned now is that it is more the journey instead of the destination, I didn’t realise how Margo felt because I was in the mindset that people are expected to act a certain way, dress a certain way, and think a certain way and society will move on as planned. But after seeing movies like divergent and Paper towns I realise its not.
My Ipod has recently been disconnected and I cant get onto it, Its been like this for 3 days and I know there is a way I can fix it I have decided not to because it gives me this new perspective in some ways. In this generation of people, Everyone is constantly on their mobile devices, there is little to no human interaction because of this and we are all closed off on our own. In a film I watched yesterday called iboy this child is shot and had his cell phone surgically put in his brain, this permitted him to access cell phones and it showed how dependant we are on our electronic devices. After watching that movie I looked around the house and named off only a couple of the objects in my house that were electrically run. The amount of things I named off surprised me as I had not realized how dependant I really was. This is kind of getting off track but hey this is my page and its just who I am!
Going off the whole dependency of us on our devices I have been noticing the struggles my generation has with spelling. We’ve come dependant on “autocorrect” we fail to know how most words are spelled making us less intelligent. Also with so many acronyms popping up our vocabulary has weakened tremendously. On many occasions I find my friends and me misspelling the simplest of words such as ‘occasions’ ‘expect’ ‘accept’ ‘remarkable’ ‘generosity’ etc. It is quite saddening to watch a generation of almost uneducated children who are expected to go through a curriculum of generations with not as easy access to internet.
Because of these reasons I have decided to simply take a break from the internet and what it has to offer. Intead I plan to spend my time in more suitable places such as the library or perhaps on the bus, In hopes of these effects.
First I’d like my vocabulary to expand. With a vast vocabulary expression of ones self would be much easier, I often find myself at a loss of words trying to convey a message but finding all the words I use wrong. My mother often tells me that reading will enhance my vocabulary and listening to her I’d like to spend more time reading and less online, I would like to be well spoken.
Second, I’d like to meet new people. In one of the movies mentioned Paper towns, the girl finds herself on new adventures and new opportunities, My knowledgeable math teacher would tell us about her travels abroad. She would stay at the houses of the people you meet. You cant meet anyone if your head is turned down towards your phone right? I often wonder why I only have only 2 very close friends because certain people fit better with certain events but sometimes I guess I get a bit bored of them, of course they are deeply in my hearts and I love them greatly but I want new adventures and opportunities like the ones Margo had in the movie. There is but one thing besides cell phones holding me in the way.
Fear. We as people fear the unknown. We are afraid of what we don’t know, the mystery in life I supposed. This could be of great help in dangerous situations such as entering a dark alley at night, wandering down a unknown street, entering unknown territories such as deep waters, dark streets, private property. Another thing we fear is one another.
We are constantly afraid of what others think of us, what others are doing, what others are capable of doing, etc. Some times could have a positive result, afraid of how people think of us is not acceptable but, being afraid of peoples actions and capabilities are good to be afraid of. The only thing preventing me from leaving my house at this very moment (1 in the morning) Is because I’m afraid of an action of an unknown person. I’m afraid of someone attacking me or trying to bring harm to me. In a park you are unable to let your guard down and bag unattended is because you are afraid someone will take it. If the possibilities of the actions of others was 100% positive I believe that we would be in a more comfortable and relaxed environment.
So the reason I didn’t talk to the girl sitting on the bus beside me was because she was constantly tapping on her phone without looking up even to stand up and depart the bus, she only momentarily looked up to see the name of her stop being called. Upon looking around I saw 90% of passengers had headphones in and/or was on a mobile device.
The reason I didn’t talk to that man sitting a few rows ahead was because I was afraid of him as a person, I was afraid of what he was capable of, what he would be able to do. I decided it would be easier to sit back and look out the window instead of embark in a conversation with a person I knew nothing about. Looking back now so many new opportunities could have arisen.
The reason I didn’t chat with those teenagers my age was because I was afraid of what they would think of me. I was afraid they would laugh and judge me. I was afraid they’d ignore me like that notification from that game you never deleted reminding you of a new level, you glance at it but never give thought or attention to it. In that moment I decided I’d rather not be noticed than give them the opportunity to embarrass and ignore me.
These are the actions of yet another person in the crowd. You see now I am the person you politely smile at while walking past on the street. tomorrow I’d like to be that memorable unexpected person that strikes up conversation in the middle of the hallway. Earlier my goal was to go unnoticed and not make big havoc, now I crave for a way out. I want to pave my own path and discover myself, In the movie Margo tells Quentin to live in the moment after Quentin tells her about his plan to get good grades and be a good student until he is married with children only then he would be happy. Margo a complete opposite with different set of motives shows him how to live now and take action now. Margo a spontaneous character took Quentin on adventures through the city and got his heart pulsing. That is where my younger self would have stopped the movie. The more curious version decided to continue to see if I could find deeper meaning because surely there was a reason the producers didn’t stop it there after their adventures surely I said. Margo and Quentin were old friends, after a while Margo found people as spontaneous as her but they were fake and not loyal. Margo always left clues for people she thought of as worthy, Quentin was for the first time responsible to unravel her trail of clues. Quentin sees it as a journey he was meant to go on to find Margo and confess his undying love for her. Margo said something interesting that resonated with me, she said “You have to get lost before you can be found” Margo was lost and her spontaneous acts were evoked because (in my opinion) she was trying to find herself so she would try adventure upon adventure to see if she could identify with. She along with all of us are lost. Those lucky enough to find a passion or pastime were not face with the question of who this person living inside this body is, who this being I’ve developed and created is. That my friends is for another discussion time. I am afraid I’ve not said all the ideas I’ve been longing to distribute through this ‘blog post’ but since it is 1:30 am 1595 words long and the plot of the movie is long gone in my memory and I must be up at 9am tomorrow I am going to rest.
As I part I ask you to take into consideration the time you spend on anything connected to technology, please moderate your time spent online and maximize your time with other people. Goodluck on the unknown journey of your life and please return again soon for some late night reads about philosophical topics from a young author.